Unbidden Thoughts

Driving through roads and places I was last in with you,

Every turn and familiar sign had me looking for your face.

Wondering where you might be. 

I waited and watched without even trying.

Telling myself it wouldn't happen.

No matter what I told myself,  some new reminder of a time together was waiting for me.

Remembering how it all started, and how we let it fall.

You weren't right, but we weren't wrong.

But where are you now?

Swimming in a sea of good intentions,

burned red with the blood of hurt feelings and broken promises.

I remember the moment I knew, that there would never be a me without you.

That whatever changed within our lives, we would never lose us as a we.

How shortsighted was I?

You were on my short list of all the ones who'd never hurt me.

Now there isn't a spot for you with me at all.

And I'm left with empty memories I can't share.

No one who understands what we had, what we lost, who you were to me, or how much it hurts to know you are so close but completely cut off from me.

I'm not sure what I should believe...

That you never did care to begin with, or that you stopped one day.

And who are we, without you and me?